I hope your mood has improved some with the responses you have received.
Just wanted to let you know that we all have that crazy feeling some time.
When I was 35 and hada guy in my life who was 32……. well- after all the usual “I’ll never leat you go for anything or anyone B.S.” he decides on a fling with a 62 yr old lady!! Ya got that? He goes for someone 30 yrs older than he while I get left hanging in the middle of a college program,etc., etc.
So after all these yrs it’s worth a laugh!!
You’ll do better the next time around! And what a clever thing to do!!